Our Greatest Need . . .

Feeling like this:


Trying to remember this:

‘This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.’ (1 John 4:9-10)

John said that God is love, and this is how He  showed His love, by sending His Son to die for us. Our greatest need is not freedom from adversity. All the possible calamities that could occur in this life cannot in any was be compared with the absolute calamity of eternal seperation from God. Jesus said no earthly joy could compare with the eternal joy of our names written in heaven (see Luke 10:20). In like manner, no earthly adversity can compare with the awful calamity of God’s eternal judgement in hell.
So when John said that God showed His love by sending His Son, he was saying God showed His love by meeting our greatest need – a need so great that no other need can even come close to it in comparison. If we want proof of God’s love for us, then we must look first at the Cross where God offered up His Son as a sacrifice for our sins. Cavalry is the one objective, absolute, irrefutable proof of God’s love for us.
– J. Bridges

xx zs


7 Months Today . . .

This past week or so I’ve been feeling rather despondent, and have been encouraged to try and discern what may have ‘triggered’ these feelings. Avoiding the things that trigger our depression can often be hard – or even impossible – but the ability to foresee them can better prepare us for the the emotions that they bring. 

These are a few that plague me at the moment (some will be quite obvious while others may seem strange to you):

Night time, sirens, helicopters, reckless drivers, Sundays, church, engagements and weddings, babies being born, motorcyclists, road accidents, showering, walking, work that needs to be done around the house, sunny days, Aunty Flow, TV shows & movies with happy endings, young couples, old couples, middle-aged couples . . . 

I have no doubt that as time passes and seasons change, so will these triggers. 

xx zs

More and more the creeping feeling of loneliness is settling in. I endure it most strongly at night, aware of only myself in the house. It is not the kind of loneliness that company can drive away. Sometimes the feeling is even more intense when I am surrounded by others. No, this is the kind of loneliness you feel when half of you is gone. It is suffocating, it is debilitating, and at the moment it feels never-ending.  

xx zs